PBB '12

Cover your eyes and ears was an appropriate warning.

It's the name of a movie called The Heat with Sandra Bullock and Melissa McCarthy. Funny as all hell :LOL:

Holy shit Haley. Shall we give you some pics of hot band members so you can get to 30?

high school is closer now aaaaaaaaaaaaaa

eh, freshies wont try that til they get to know the place. Then you have time to figure out a plan.

Em: Well, the last time I saw the kids in the grade below me, they were still somewhat innocent-minded and youthfully annoying, but now... I've heard that they're trouble. They've become teenagers, and now they are probably all perverted and senseless [this is not applying to you, obviously. I think you are brilliant and so fabulous, girl.]

I guess we'll have to see how it handles out. If they bother me, I'll just punch a hole right through their faces. Yeah.

Sammeth: My sister was a junior and she hated that year... and I'm not saying this to freak you out (Gosh, what is wrong with me?)

But really, she just had stupid things bother her, and her OCD had gotten much worse. On the other hand, I think you will be fine~ *huggles*
My sister took some kind of SATs, and she didn't get the study guide like everyone else, but she still did very well. I guess my only advice is to study a bit, if you want.

I'm still going to have an awkward situation with a specific boy when I get back, too, so I guess we can just stay together with that, try to get through it



I know I'm going to hate Sophomore year because...
1) My sister, her friends (who are also my friends) are going to be graduating, leaving me to suffer for at least another month until summer. And then, I'll be suffering for the rest of my high school life without them. Which brings me to..
2) I hate the friends that I have in my grade, as well as every other person in my grade. They all ignore me, or at least treat me like I'm inhuman/fragile/smarty pants/etc. which all hurts my feelings.
3) The principal that I had for Freshman year was the principal I had throughout all of my junior high years (he basically knows my life story, and has helped me through so much), and he's returning to the junior high. Therefore there will be a new principal who will probably not have my back. Which brings me to..
4) I have been harassed (in the "bad" way- not so severely) by a stupid punk who had a crush on me last year, and his fricken friends. The principal that I've had for the past four years or so helped me keep that freak and his friends away. And now that he'll be leaving, as well as the juniors that have protected me just as much, I'll be so vulnerable to his harassing, and will probably end up murdering him and his friends out of insanity and stress.

Yeah.

Sorry for that rant, but it's just getting to me lately.
But I'll do like you suggested- be myself, stick with the freshmen I guess. I just need people to help me through the year, and I should be fine, but that's so hard to come by these years, you know?

My goodness, Sammeth. Your words just amazed me.
I actually kind of have hope for sophomore year now, thanks to you *huggles*

Some of the things you've suggested I do, I have already tried..
for example) Ignoring the stupid boys: Whenever I saw them, and they were already stalking me/gossiping like pathetic little girls about me, I ignored them. In gym especially, when they would be making fun of everyone participating, they'd target me, even though they did not try to make it so obvious that they were, and I would ignore them. If anything, once I made eye contact with the main stupid boy (as he would sneer/smirk at me trying to make me feel terrible about myself), I'd turn to my friend and start laughing or smiling about the crazy gym exercise we were doing. I made sure that I would not let any miserable disposition radiate off of me just to please him (because I know that's just what he wants to see). And I also told myself that I was not just pretending to not be miserable, because honestly, I was happy, or at least content. I would not let one obnoxious, cruel troll try to ruin my day. I mean, geesh, if that kid thought he could take me down in an instant as if he knew everything about me, then he's got something else coming for him. Because in sophomore year, and thanks to your advice, I will be so stuck-up around him that nothing he will ever do will bother me. I will crush his hopes, on my own (without the help of the principle or my friends), and he will see that he's wasting his screwed up life on somebody that doesn't give a flying shit about him or his motives. I will tear him down.

ahem. But enough of my angry/powerful/positive rant, there.


Also, it may not be sophomore year that I do this, considering I will be too busy, but I might look into clubs or groups in junior year. Not only have I heard from you that it is a great decision to do, but many people in my school have also said that, as well. Perhaps I can grow closer to some of my friends if they are willing to experience it all with me, and I could also possibly make some new friends (even though I hate meeting new people.)

And about dressing the way I want to, I will do that even more than I have been these past two years. I've always wanted to wear dresses (I have a girly side, guys.) And so far, I've only worn a dress once in the past 7 years, or so. And now that my sister is actually considering wearing dresses, I might have her approval to go out wearing dresses more often (she usually scorned me/forced me to not wear dresses to school.)


But yeah, thank you for all of the advice It really means a lot to me!

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And yes, I have more to say, but this is directed towards everyone, I suppose...

I think I'm becoming an insomniac.
My reason is that- and after researching- I have most of the symptoms. It's actually kind of freaking me out, but I am going to try my best to shut it down before it grows worse, despite my stubborn side which is saying "don't go to sleep, you fool! Because if you do, you're going to sleep forever and ruin your time schedule once again and for the worse!!" and "you're going to prove to your family that you are vulnerable to them if you fall asleep. They want you to sleep, but you have to prove that you can make your own decisions."

but then the disappointed side in me comes out, saying, "why are you making yourself older than you really are? You should still lavish yourself under your parents'/family's rule because one day it's going to be gone, and there's no turning back. Just suck it up and sleep; you know you want to."

and then the stubborn side comes out, once again... "but I'm not even tired."

But my body/brain responds, "GO TO SLEEP, YOU IDIOT. THIS ISN'T GOOD FOR YOUR HEALTH. YOUR BRAIN IS KILLING YOU BECAUSE YOU KEEP THINKING ABOUT EVERYTHIIIING."

which is true. My mind will not ever shut up. It's exhausting. And it's actually gotten to the point in my life where I've concluded: "I am so mentally exhausted that I can't even force myself to fall asleep anymore."

hopefully this all goes away, in time.

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Also, another thing I want to bring up (see? I can't stop talking/thinking). I might be going to Maine tomorrow, which is pretty cool but sad because the last time I was there, was when I was seeing Keane for my first time. I don't really know how I am going to react, especially since I might also be very fatigued.

We'll see.

It's just very annoying, you know? :c
I just want to have a normal sleeping schedule, and I don't. I feel like my days are going by too quick, and that this isn't even summer vacation anymore.

I'm not a very active person, no, but I do try to at least exercise for maybe 5 minutes a day (gosh, that's pretty bad.)
It's just I don't have enough room in both my dad and mum's house to even do anything. And there's always pet fur on the ground that likes to stick to my back if I try anything
And then outside I would be attacked by the swarms of bugs. eh.

I was actually hoping that once school starts though, I would stay after school some days to just jog around the track. But obviously, that won't help the predicament I stand in now.. oh well!


Thank you for the advice/suggestions again :3
And also, thanks for the reassurance that things will get better with it! I always seem to act like certain things will be the death of me, but obviously it will not. (actually, you never know...)
Though, then again, it can be considered quite serious because so many of these things take away my happiness. So... :C