PBB '12

Sam: Well, apparently I didn't ask him, but he told me that the place I go to for check-ups is closed on the weekend. I told my dad to schedule an appointment tomorrow for whenever.

K: Thank you for the input, sir. I shall find some food that has that


Overall, my condition has gotten better. The headache, I think, is finally starting to go away. I'm still always tired and weak, but I guess I can survive. Perhaps my new diet and exercise is helping after all.

I'm not too happy about having school tomorrow though. I've been on February vacation since two Fridays ago... I just hope nothing bad happens while I'm there- such as passing out, actually having a stroke, etc.

Em: In my state, I have February vacation, where as other states have March vacation, or something. Then I also have April vacation, but I'm not sure if other states have that as well. Yeah. I can't really eat much dairy products, by the way, because I'm lactose intolerant [even though I used to eat bagels w/cream cheese all of the time.. I've gotten somewhat used to eating dairy]. I'll try to find something though


So, as for the updates on my health.. there's a whole new factor and it's terrifying. Even though just last night the pain was subsiding, today the migraine came back and it was the WORST I've ever felt. I was nearly crying in Algebra today because my brain hurt so much.


I've come to realize that this "headache" pain is not what it's made out to be. It doesn't feel normal, it feels like something is in my brain.


So I've begun my research on brain cancer. Guys, I think I have it.



It may seem wrong for me to say so, but honestly, it all makes sense. There's been a lot of strange things happening before the "stroke-incident" which I casually just shrugged off as completely strange, but I analyzed further and now I think those happenstances were seizures. There are different kinds of seizures, I read about 3 main kinds, and I think I've experience 2 of them.


It's getting really bad guys. I'm absolutely terrified to fall asleep. My sister and my dad are still saying "you're reading this stuff on the computer and then applying it. Because you're reading this stuff, you're making yourself feel it all".

That's not true, and I've tried to tell them, but they aren't exactly believing me.


However, my dad, I think deep inside, knows something really bad is happening and he's denying it because he's so scared and he doesn't want to believe it's true. He told me that someone in our family had cancer before... and I just think he's scared it's grown onto me, especially since I brought it up.


I really hope I will get to live another day or week. I have a concert to go to on Saturday and I still haven't seen Muse yet, ever.


I thought my dad would have scheduled me an appointment today, which I told him to, and he didn't. So he's going to tomorrow. I just don't want to go to school though. I can't focus.


great, my brain just went tingly/fuzzy. might have another stroke-thing right now.



I'll try to keep you all updated. Sorry if this is all jumbled, again.

I'd go to a checkup before jumping to conclusions. I'm not saying you're imagining it or something but the more you keep reading up on these things the more panicked you'll get. That won't do you any help.

Haley: I really do hope everything turns out okay for you. Of course you wanna go see Muse and not have a headache

*trying to lighten up mood probably unsuccessfully*

Haley: She's fine, she was at school today. I'm just worried about you right now. But as long as it's just dehydration, it's good.

Ugh, sounds nasty. My friend can stick a pencil in between his knuckles and it creeps me the fuck out.